I’ve said that I went back to work fairly recently. I did.
I work for what seem to be lovely people, in an office with someone I genuinely get along with and enjoy being around.
This is a big part of what makes or breaks any job. And I have it made.
The other part of making or breaking is actually being able to do what you were hired to do.
I’ve never had a problem with that, you know? I’m a good worker. I learn (or I thought I learned) fairly quickly and I catch on with no problem. I’ve always considered myself smart and intuitive.
Don’t get me wrong – I have always required a learning window.
Maybe it’s because I’m in an field that I’d never really encountered before. Maybe it’s because it’s been years since I’ve worked for an employer. Maybe it’s just that I’m getting old.
Whatever it is, I am having the worst time learning the order and flow of things. I ask questions and I worry that I’m annoying and then I just keep to myself and I worry I’m being useless.
What would be perfect is if someone told me, step by step, everything to do. Every time. And then gave me a pop quiz. Then once I learned what was going on, they would need to step off and leave me alone.
I know it’ll get better. I know I’ll know what’s going on soon enough. I just hope no one kills me before that happens.