Why I won’t be a midnight Potterhead

It’s like I’m watching my twenties disappear…

To be honest, my twenties disappeared a couple of years ago, but shut up.

I had promised myself I wasn’t going to gush about Harry Potter and how the franchise is ending and whatnot.

And I don’t plan to gush, but as common and unexciting as it is, these books have been a big part of my life.

I didn’t get on the Harry Potter bandwagon right away. As with many things that turn out to be hugely popular, I heard about the books, and when I realized how popular they were becoming, I decided not to like them. I had no clue of the storyline or anything at all, but I wasn’t going to be a part of the drooling masses.

Yeah, that didn’t quite work out.

I think I finally caved in and read the books right about the time Goblet of Fire came out. After that, it was shameless. I waited for each of the next books with equal fervor, and when Deathly Hallows finally arrived, not only did I work a midnight release party (as a bookstore clerk, not a stripper as that sentence kind of makes it sound. Perverts.), but I had the book read by the next afternoon.

The books have been a constant since I caved in and loved them, and now we all love them. They have grown to take up the space of the whole collection. They’ve been shunned for being anti-Jesus. Max took one to school and was told that “Harry isn’t a nice boy.”

It’s anyone’s guess as to why these books – these characters, this story – are so magical (see what I did there?). I don’t know, and pretty much I don’t care. They’re fun. They’re whimsical. Every kid wants to get a Hogwarts letter. I wanted a Hogwarts letter when I read about them, and I hadn’t been 11 for over a decade.

As much as I generally don’t like movies made from books I love, the movies have been great. Harry, Ron, Hermione, and everyone else have finally gotten consistent faces in my mind’s eye – and that’s really rare.

Tonight at midnight everyone will be lining up to see the last movie, just like I did for the last however many.

But not me. Not this time.

I’ll tell people it’s because I don’t want to burden anyone with Lucy, my needy bedhog, in the middle of the night, and that’s true.


The fact of the matter is that this is it. It all ends.
And even though I know what happens and it’s just a movie, I kind of feel like I’m saying goodbye to friends.

Isn’t that crazy? I mean, I can watch the movies and reread the books every year like I have for the past eight years, and I can read whatever else J.K. Rowling eventually puts out, knowing it won’t be as good. Even if it is.

I guess it’s just how it goes. The end of an era. I’ll look back on these stories like they’re my generation’s Star Wars.

So while I am anxious to see the movie, I’m okay with not racing to be first in line. I’m not quite ready to say goodbye.

If you go see the new Harry Potter and you see a woman weeping in the aisle when you’re leaving, that’s me. Just walk on by.

6 thoughts on “Why I won’t be a midnight Potterhead

  1. I feel the exact same way! I am desperate to see the movie but also want to avoid the end… And it isn’t like I don’t know how it ends – I’ve only read the 7th book about 543 times plus have the Jim Dale audiobook running in the car at any given time…. The first movie came out when my kids were in the 1st grade and kindergarten – it has been a part of our lives for sure! And I was a late joiner, too – didn’t start to read the books until after (the day after, in fact) seeing the first movie. They are great stories but more than that I was just so relieved to be able to talk about magic and fairies again. I’m trying not to get bogged down with frustration about the number of kids around here who aren’t allowed to watch the movies or read the books……. I’m skipping the midnight show as well but will be there the next day :) Fighting 12 years olds at midnight has always been more fun at bookstores than movie theaters for me!

    • lol I agree! The bookstore was one thing at midnight– the movie theater is something entirely different!
      When book 5 came out, I was 8 months pregnant with my son and HUGE. I was the first in line for the book at midnight. :oP Great memories. My son was sooo active that night.

  2. I was just telling a friend of mine the exact thing! I really want to see it, but I’m not in a hurry to say good-bye to Harry and the rest of the world of Hogwarts and muggles and deatheaters and Voldemort. I know what happens, but it still seems so… final, you know? *sigh*

  3. I am right there with you. I’m not ready to say goodbye, despite the fact that I know exactly what happens, there is something so final about going to the last movie. I’m thinking of taking my boys (Clarke and my 3 nephews) tomorrow but have not totally decided yet. We shall see.

  4. You won’t be the only one weeping – many of us will be sad to see Harry’s world go. It will be exciting to see what takes Harry’s place, though. I’m super-curious about what J.K. Rowling is writing now!

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